Tori Spelling is a broken women.

The 40 year-old actress has finally broken her silence for the first time since finding out her husband, Dean McDermott, had cheated.

Spelling speaks candidly with this week's issue of Us Weekly about how McDermott's affair has left her heartbroken.

"He was my soulmate, but he completely broke my heart," the 40-year-old 'Beverly Hills, 90210' alum told the magazine.

"It makes you not trust anything that's happened in your relationship," she continued.

The acting couple are set to star in a Lifetime docu-series 'True Tori', which will premiere on April 22nd, and as seen in a preview clip, it will focus on their attempt to save their marriage after McDermott's cheating scandal with 28-year-old Emily Goodhand in December 2013.

The pair, who are parents to four children, Liam, 7, Finn, 20 months, and daughters Stella, 5, and Hattie, 2, met in 2005 on the film set of 'Mind Over Murder'. They began dating while each of them were married to other people.

McDermott is also a father to 15 year-old Jack, whom he shares with ex-wife Mary Jo Eustace.

Many people are wondering why Tori would want to film her family's turmoil personal lives, especially the Canadian actor's recent rehab stint and cheating scandal, but a source close to the situation revealed that she wants to "humiliate him."

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"The decision to do this show is not coming from someone who is in a solid, good place. Tori is very, very upset and angry," a longtime friend of Spelling's told People. "It's just too raw and personal. There's too much pain and it's too private."

"A part of her wants to completely humiliate him and make him suffer in front of millions of people," the pal continued. "She wants to have some sort of justice. She wants him to truly feel the pain of what he did to her."

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Spelling and McDermott are trying to save their marriage