Hollywood star Michelle Rodriguez fears she may never fulfil her dream of directing, as she suffers from Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD). The former Lost beauty has such trouble focusing she knows it will affect her career choices - but she is reluctant to take medication to treat the frustrating affliction. She tells Cosmopolitan magazine, "I want to write and direct, but it's not easy with ADD. "I have a hard time focusing when I'm alone. I'm a scatterbrain, but I'm nervous of taking medication. I don't really want to depend on anything to control my brain."