Jennifer Garner has finally broken her silence on her divorce from Ben Affleck, after the couple announced the end of their 10 year marriage in June. Speaking to Vanity Fair, Garner said that Affleck was still the love of her life, despite their shock split.

Jennifer GarnerJennifer Garner has opened up about her split from Ben Affleck.

“It was a real marriage,” Garner told Vanity Fair. “It wasn’t for the cameras. And it was a huge priority for me to stay in it. And that did not work. I didn’t marry the big fat movie star; I married him.”

"And I would go back and remake that decision. I ran down the beach to him, and I would again. You can’t have these three babies and so much of what we had. He’s the love of my life. What am I going to do about that? He’s the most brilliant person in any room, the most charismatic, the most generous.”

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“He’s just a complicated guy. I always say, ‘When his sun shines on you, you feel it.’ But when the sun is shining elsewhere, it’s cold. He can cast quite a shadow.” After the couple announced their decision to separate it was rumoured that Affleck had been having an affair with their children’s nanny.

Addressing the ‘nannygate’ rumours for the first time, Garner said: “Let me just tell you something. We had been separated for months before I ever heard about the nanny. She had nothing to do with our decision to divorce. She was not a part of the equation.”

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“Bad judgment? Yes. It’s not great for your kids for [a nanny] to disappear from their lives. I have had to have conversations about the meaning of ‘scandal.” Recently Affleck has been photographed with a giant back tattoo, of a rising phoenix, something which Garner claims no responsibility for.

“You know what we would say in my hometown about that? ‘Bless his heart.’ A phoenix rising from the ashes. Am I the ashes in this scenario?” Garner added. “I take umbrage. I refuse to be the ashes.”