Stephen Fry is convinced his suicide attempt last year (12) was the wake-up call he needed to address his mental health issues because he is feeling better than ever after enlisting the help of a "magnificent psychiatrist".
The British funnyman recently revealed he attempted to end his own life by swallowing pills and vodka during a work trip abroad in 2012, but was saved by a Tv producer and hotel staff who broke down a door to help him.
Fry, who suffers from a form of bipolar disorder, has now detailed his recovery in a candid blog post, revealing he contemplated suicide on a daily basis but is getting better by working with a psychiatrist and taking mood-stabilising drugs.
He writes, "The episode, plus the relationship I now have with a magnificent psychiatrist, has made my mental health better, I think, than it's ever been. I used to think it utterly normal that I suffered from 'suicidal ideation' on an almost daily basis. In other words, for as long as I can remember, the thought of ending my life came to me frequently and obsessively...
"But medicine, much as some don't like to hear it, can help. I am on a regime of four a day. One is an SNRI (serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor) (which) are a class of antidepressant , the other a mood-stabiliser. I haven't considered suicide in anything other than a puzzled intellectual way since this pharmaceutical regime 'kicked in'."
The star goes on to ponder whether his problems stem from loneliness, adding, "Lonely? I get invitation cards through the post almost every day. I shall be in the Royal Box at Wimbledon and I have serious and generous offers from friends asking me to join them... (on vacation) this summer... In the end loneliness is the most terrible and contradictory of my problems. I hate having only myself to come home to... It's not that I want a sexual partner, a long-term partner, someone to share a bed and a snuggle on the sofa with - although perhaps I do... It's a lose-lose matter. I don't want to be alone, but I want to be left alone... And perhaps I am writing this for any of you out there who are lonely too. There's not much we can do about it... But I want you to know that you are not alone in your being alone."