Papa Roach's singer, Jacoby Shaddix, revealed that he was ready to commit suicide when he thought about his family, and decided to keep living.
Jacoby Shaddix, the vocalist of Papa Roach, revealed that he came very close to committing suicide before the release of her new album. The 36-year-old singer spent almost a decade fighting alcoholism and facing a deteriorating relationship with his wife Kelly, but has now decided to take on his demons.
In an interview with 'Metal Hammer' magazine, Shaddix explained: ''I went to Sausalito [California] to hang myself. I was in a f***ing place, man. The booze, my lifestyle, this woman I'd been with since I was 16. I've never been that f***ing broken. I was seriously going to finish it.'' He revealed, however, that while sitting in a hotel room contemplating ''that last conversation with your family on the phone''. It was this, he admitted, that caused a change of heart.
Jacoby continued to say that: ''Suicide, that's the most selfish act. So I decided I had to endure this pain that I was going through.'' He chose an interesting and constructive way of consoling himself, admitting that: ''I f***ing wrote a song instead.'' This song - 'Before I Die' - ended up being the inspiration the band needed for their seventh album, 'The Connection', although Jacoby felt that he wasn't ready to publish a song about his brush with suicide.
Finally, his band mates convinced him to finish writing the song and add it to the album. He explained their coercion, saying: ''[They] were like, 'You've got to do that. Every time we make records, you're always brutally honest about what you're going through.''