Rock wildman Ozzy Osbourne endured years of self-loathing as a result of beating his wife SHARON.

The BLACK SABBATH star - who infamously tried to murder his spouse at the height of his drinking and drug-taking in 1989 - used to hit Sharon when drunk, something that still torments him today.

But the hellraiser insists defeating his demons has taught him to value his family, who are now stars of reality TV show The Osbournes.

He says, "I used to be a wife beater. I'm not proud of it but I will own up to the fact.

"I think it's wrong. I don't know why she stayed.

"I love Sharon more than life itself. And I love my children. I haven't always been the greatest guy. I used to do crazy things."

"The way I felt when I hit Sharon is the same way I feel right now thinking about it. I hate myself."

01/12/2003 14:08