The troubled Hollywood couple had a stormy marriage resulting in the WILD ORCHID actress demanding a divorce seven years ago (98).
But Rourke, 48, was near-suicidal at the time of the split, and admits he still hasn't recovered from it.
He says, "I would have blown my brains out. But I'm Catholic - I asked a priest if I could go ahead.
"He talked me out of it. But of all the things that happened to me, losing my wife was the worst.
"It's the thought of getting her back that's keeping me going."08/06/2005 21:26