The 28 year-old singer nearly died due to blood poisoning, after suffering from her second miscarriage in 2010.
Lilly Allen has kept relatively quiet about a personal tragedy that occurred in November 2010.
The 28 year-old pop star suffered a miscarriage during her pregnancy with husband Sam Cooper.
Only days after losing her unborn baby, Allen was rushed to hospital and came close to death due to septicaemia – poisoning of the blood.
Speaking for the very first time about the horrific ordeal nearly 4 years ago, the ‘Hard Out Here’ singer told The Sun on Sunday: “I nearly died. But I was so numb and I didn’t care. I’d just lost my baby and that is how numb I was.”
“It’s something that I still haven’t dealt with,” she admitted. “I will never get over it. I have dealt with it, you know as being at one with it. But it’s not something you get over.”
Even though after Allen recovered from the successful surgery, and went on to give birth to two daughters – Ethel (2) and Marnie (1), the memory of the tragedy is still as raw and painful as ever.
“I held my child and it was really horrific and painful – one of the hardest things that can happen to a person,” she explained.
Lily suffered her first miscarriage when dating then partner Ed Simmons, from the Chemical Brothers, in 2008. This led to her spending three weeks in a psychiatric clinic for three weeks to receive treatment for depression.
When speaking to the newspaper, the ‘It’s Not Fair’ singer credits her husband, Cooper, to have been at her side throughout the ordeal in 2010, and also for stopping her abusing harmful substances as shee admitted to “self-medicating with alcohol and with whatever else,” when they first met.
Allen came close to dying after contracting septicemia in 2010