Country star Keith Urban has credited his stint in rehab for helping him become 'the real Keith Urban'. The troubled rocker, who checked into the Betty Ford Center for alcohol and cocaine addiction in October last year (06) - three months after his wedding to actress Nicole Kidman - admits he was suffering from an identity crisis during his battle with drugs. He says, "The other way for me was tougher because I was not living. I chose the option to not feel, and that means you're not living. In the last six months I've felt I'm alive, engaged in my own life, present, accountable and responsible. And the irony is, I'm becoming the person I was trying to be all along. "I was able to find my identity of who I am off stage. I've played music my whole life."