Rocker John Mayer has confessed he'll always love ex-girlfriend Jennifer Aniston and regrets the fact he couldn't be a more mature lover for her.
The couple split in 2009 after a brief romance and Aniston is now reportedly dating Scottish actor Gerard Butler, but Mayer can't get the Friends star out of his head.
In a candid Playboy interview, the Daughters singer reveals, "I'll always be sorry that it didn't last. In some ways I wish I could be with her. But I can't change the fact that I need to be 32.
"Parts of me aren't 32. My ability to go deep with somebody is old soul. My ability to commit and be faithful is old soul. But 32 just comes roaring out of me at points when I don't see it coming... I don't want to pet dogs in the kitchen."
And he'll always have terrible memories of his split from the actress - because he felt like such a "villain" and spent the following week trying to avoid the media's interest in his love life.
He adds, "I had seen splitting up with her as akin to burning an American flag... I felt as though I'd done something wrong and was going to be punished for it.
"When the media picked up on it, it was the worst f**king week of my life... All I can remember is that I was about to lose my vision. My emotional tissue was about to tear."
He staged a showdown with reporters who had hounded him at the gym, and recalls, "I was on the verge of crying and also on the verge of punching someone."