Comedienne Joan Rivers owes her freedom of spirit to her husband Edgar Rosenberg's suicide 18 years ago (14AUG87), but she has huge regrets over the tragedy.

Rivers is devastated she failed to prevent Rosenberg from taking his own life, but believes his death has allowed her to live out her dreams without restraint.

After she was widowed Rivers took her daughter MELISSA to find their destiny in New York City and remains philosophical about the tragedy.

She says, "A friend of mine said at the funeral, 'He set you free.' And it's true. I moved to New York, I got me that penthouse, I went trekking in Nepal - I chose a very different life.

"Before we were a very conventional family unit and mixed with other families with children.

"And the minute I was free, Melissa was just old enough (seven) that I could say, 'I've got to get out of here, I want my own life, I want to live the way I want to live.' And everything just changed."