Jade Goody's fiance Jack Tweed has spoken of his conflicted feeling before his wedding to the former Big Brother star, who has terminal cancer.
The couple's wedding is to be filmed for Living, with pictures of the wedding featured in the next edition of OK! magazine, after Goody's representatives negotiated a £700,000 fee.
Speaking ahead of tying the note with Goody at a country hotel in Hertfordshire, Tweed said: "It's weird, but it's like a film, I'm happy, but then I'm sad, obviously."
Having only proposed last week, Tweed said he was yet to think of a speech.
"I've got things to say, like how proud I am of her and what she's achieved and everything, and obviously how beautiful she looks," he added.
"Even if I have to drag her down there, she'll be down that aisle.
"Even in that hospital bed, I'll wheel the hospital bed down there."
Kate Jackson, producer of the Living programme Jade, is to be a bridesmaid at the wedding and said the reality TV star's health was the channel's "number one concern".
She also spoke of the 27-year-old mother-of-two's reaction upon learning Goody that she only had months to live.
"It was like she couldn't breathe, she was trying to catch her breath and she just couldn't, she couldn't understand it," Jackson said.
"And then it kind of started to sink in and she was doing what you'd expect anyone to do, which was scream and howl and say this is all wrong, I can't believe it."