Reformed drink and drug addict Jack Osbourne is convinced his childhood made him want to be a "druggie" - but he quickly realised there was nothing glamorous about prolonged substance abuse.
But as is own intake of drink and drugs hit a critical level, Osbourne realised the inner hell they can create and began to wish for his own death as a way out.
He says, "In a really kind of sick, dark way I kind of wanted to be a druggie. I wanted to be a part of the lifestyle for some reason.
"I thought it was cool to get loaded, take drugs and get drunk - that is what I thought you did.
"After I did I hoped I was going to die, I really did. I thought, 'This life really isn't that great and maybe if I die it'll get better.'"
Osbourne kicked his addictions thanks to spells in rehab and support from his family and now presents his own extreme sports reality TV show.