"I'm was a self-pacifier. I don't know if my childhood was so traumatic that I had to pacify myself with all of these things. What I would do all the time as a little girl - I would hve my thumb in my mouth and I would pull on my eye and I would play with my ears so it would be three forms of pacification all at once." Hollywood actress Evangeline Lilly admits she is haunted by her bizarre childhood behaviour.