EDDIE VAN HALEN was often "afraid" to pick up his guitar during Van Halen's recent recording sessions as it was the first time he has made an album while sober.
The rocker gave up booze several years ago after a long struggle with a drinking problem, and he admits making the band's new record, A Different Kind of Truth with original frontman David Lee Roth, felt strange without the help of alcohol.
He tells Esquire magazine, "It's a sullen truth, but this is the first record I've made sober. There's a certain place that you have to get to where things just flow, and I have to say that when I drank and did blow (cocaine), it might have created a false sense of getting there easier. I'm not comparing myself to all these famous artists in history, but you know, everybody, guys like Mozart, they were all alcoholics. And it does somehow enable you to lower your inhibitions.
"At the same time, it also gives you a false sense that what you're doing is great. Now I'm so aware of everything that sometimes I'm afraid to pick up my guitar."
However, the musician is adamant he will never have another drink, adding, "You know, people say with that twelve-step program you will succeed. I disagree. When they say, 'You can't say, I will never drink again,' I can honestly say I will never drink again. It's a whole new world."