Courtney Love teared up in a new documentary about her life as she recalled the start of her romance with late husband Kurt Cobain.
But it wasn't out of fondness for the tragic Nirvana frontman - she was recalling the pain of their courtship.
In the Behind The Music special, which debuted in America on Monday (21Jun10), Love confessed she struggled to cope with criticism levelled at her and her lover's wild ways.
Love explains, "It's really hard sometimes when everyone in the world is picking on you and that's what started happening... That really, really hurt my feelings; it was horrible. It took a long time to adapt to it and that was trauma... I didn't ask to be hated."
And she started sobbing again when she recalled the extent of her suicidal husband's drug use: "He'd pass out and seek oblivion and I'd have to f**king slap him and put pins in his balls and put ice cubes everywhere and it started to p**s me off... I started resenting that; I didn't like being a nursemaid."
And she didn't get a lot of help: "He once overdosed on the floor in front of his mother and sister and I went to do all the s**t you do when someone overdoses and I look up and they'd taken off."