Amanda Holden has confessed she stopped taking her contraceptive pill without telling her husband to conceive her daughter Hollie, and although it was slightly ''devious'' Amanda insists it was a good thing to do because her birth helped the couple get over the grief of suffering a miscarriage in 2010 and the birth of their stillborn son Theo the following year.
Amanda Holden has confessed she tricked her husband into having their daughter Hollie.
The 'Britain's Got Talent' judge secretly stopped taking her contraceptive pill in order to conceive her 21-month-old daughter Hollie with her husband Chris Hughes, but insists it was the right thing to do because it helped them deal with the grief of suffering a miscarriage in 2010 and the birth of their stillborn son Theo the following year.
In an interview with the new UK issue of OK! magazine, she said: ''I'll be honest, what I did was devious. But it was the only way I could think to stop something bad happening - having to go somewhere, away from my family and being looked after by proper people [in a psychiatric institution.] That was not going to happen to me. I've always been a fixer, and I knew what would fix it.
''Obviously I was never going to replace my son. I think about him every day. But I had to have another baby. I know I may get criticism, but it was about survival. ''
Amanda, 42, delivered Theo when was seven months pregnant and her husband Chris - with whom she also has seven-year-old daughter Lexi - had advised her to wait before trying for another child but he was overjoyed once he learned of her pregnancy.
She recalled: ''He was shocked. I don't think he could get his head round it. But afterwards he said, 'I'm so glad you did it.' ''
Amanda - who almost died due to complications during the birth of Hollie - knows she made the right choice to get pregnant and insists she had to because she didn't have time to waste.
She said: ''We'd already made the choice to have another baby, but he wanted to give it time, until after I'd done 'Shrek' [the musical]. Men don't understand. The clock ticks, my eggs were going to shrink into raisins, so we needed to move on with it.''